Jane, thirtysomething ex-librarian, talking
to Eric, a young man she has taken hostage, in
BOOKENDS.
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JANE
I don't have a watch. I feel so naked. Educated people wear watches, but—can
you believe this?—I was mugged on my way here. In the middle of a subway
car. In broad daylight. The man took my watch. He had no idea I was wearing
enough explosives to blow up the entire subway system, and I didn't think
it was fair to penalize him for something he couldn't possibly have known.
(beat)
I don't want to say that people are cowardly, but no one came to my aid. It
was very disappointing.
(beat)
The mugger ran out of the train and was immediately grabbed by three beefy
men, who raped him with—I can't swear by it because I was wearing my
reading glasses at the time—but it looked like a fish spoon . . . all
this in plain view before the train even left the station.
(beat)
Perhaps it was retribution and I was receiving a clear message that what happened
to me mattered. Something was out there being punitive, and if this man mugged
me, at least he'd be made to pay for it. But I couldn't help thinking that
the punishment was out of line with the crime. It made me wonder if he was
being punished for what he'd done to me in the subway car, or whether there
was a whole string of me's. Maybe I didn't matter, because how many times
can you be raped with a fish spoon anyway, and maybe other people were waiting
on this guy with the kind of crimes that required a fish spoon, and my mugging
couldn't have contributed anything over and above that. Are you hungry?
(beat)
All that talk about the fish spoon made me realize I'm starving.